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life always finds a way to test you at just the right moments. just when it’s getting too easy & you’re coasting along with the breeze in your hair, juuuuust wait for it.
a speed bump,
a pothole,
a thunderstorm.
something to keep you on your toes.
something to push you a little further than you thought you could go.
something from which to learn, grow, evolve.

i’m in the thick of that something right now. it’s usually hard to see reason & to understand that this is all for your greater good. that you’re going to come out stronger. wiser. better. i’m slowly discovering tools to mentally prepare myself for the next couple tumultuous months. instead of incessantly wondering, “how the hell am i going to get through this everyday?” i’m beginning to formulate an action plan for myself. something to turn to & reference when i feel myself boiling over. i’m also writing this as a reminder to myself that i actually felt peace with it & found reason for an evening. tomorrow is a new day & i might, just might, need this reminder.

this will definitely be a process…

(infinitely grateful for B, amber & my mama for listening to me when i need to vent, & offering wise words when i can’t get away from the emotions that often come from being in the moment.)